THE WORLD I LIVE IN

Hello world.. Working is tough and i always feel like i wanna quit now. i'm too concentrate on its difficulty instead of trying to work it out. I know i have to fight any difficulties and be grateful of those lessons that i got everyday. I need to remind myself each and everyday, "There's no easy job. Every job can give you stress. It is you who can prevent it. Try to love what you do. So that it will give a positive impact on your life.". So what happen to me is that my work affected me so much that the result is dragging into my personal life as well. I don't do well on my job. That's what I think. My work seems to messed up it made me think, "Am I good enough to do this?", "Why is it so hard?", "Am I suitable for this job?", "Am I that stupid? I can't do my job perfectly", and so on and so on. You see all my thoughts are negatives. They didn't give me any positive impact.  This thoughts just make me more miserable and down. And then this app in my phone just pop up and gave me this wisdom words, and i was like... hmmm.. maybe it's right. Maybe i should slow down a bit and see what I've been doing so far and put perspective in to my life of what i wanna do. So, 3 months afters i saw this i ended up coming back to university. I'm majoring Kriya Textil & Mode, which i like and passionate about for so long. And now, 2 years later, I've been struggling here and there to do better in my field. Was it fun? Well, since it's my passion it's should be....but it's not all the time. Call me a masochist (cos i think we all are), even though it looks like an easy major it's not. Creativity is hard, experiment is hard, money problem -because you have to pay off your bills, school tuition, your school assignments etc etc- is hard, and yet i always comeback to this field, the satisfaction when i did all the work well, the good and the bad, all makes me happy. So, this is life.. It's different from what i had 3 years ago or 5 years ago, but i am surviving. My life is in a cycle. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad. Some time ago i might hate to the core about the job and some other time i hate my campus life to the core. But there's always a little bit of happiness in between. I just need to enjoy it and be grateful that i can survive till now. Hopefully i can still survive to the years to come.